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That is so painfully beautiful. That song and album brings up such memories for me. When I reconnected with my current husband after not seeing each other for over 20 years, that album played on repeat. I worked with a voice teacher to learn to sing Falling Slowly. Your memories and your storytelling are exquisite. I love thinking of the three of you, a trio in New York forming that beautiful bond.

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Dear Mary, thank you. You know, I write things often to have a good cry, to cleanse, like I told C.J. here. It's good to remember this. Seems in life it's the simple gestures, hand squeezes, or that look that says it all, etc., that remain in our memory banks forever. It was a very difficult and exciting time. I think we all grew up during this time and realized how heavy our personalities were (are). There are so many things I can't say, but I think you get it. Thank you for telling me that this music was part of your story and reconnection with your husband :). I love that so much. Also, thank you for reading. Sending you my love. I hope you're doing good, still in the thick of helping your community and all that you love. I'm praying over the physical, and especially the emotional recovery of so many. oxox

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I know family things are so hard. There are so many things we carry, and I think mothers feel that “wound that pierces the soul,” in a different way than dads do. Not more, just different. Thanks for this glimmer that you can share. I know there is much more. Sending love across many states.

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They are. And we do. We carry the weight of hearts. It's hard to shake. I've been experiencing something I have never experienced in my life. My heart was so wounded in 2020 - I think I need to talk to someone about it. It pieced my soul. Hard to explain in words. Thank you for sharing with me too. Love you back across the miles Mary. ox

p.s. I got the timeline wrong so changed it slightly to going back to see Ian in November for the first football game. I forgot we had moved him there and he went backpacking right away to get to know people. Crazy how I forgot that. It was so hard to leave. So that November we went to the theater to see Once. I also added some more pictures. I've used so many of NYC in my stories. There are thousands of iPhone images that are now locked up because Apple keeps changing the photo app on the computers. Face slap. I should have paid for the Cloud all these years. I started to a few years ago. But. Budget was always a big thing. Still is. ox

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Love you. 💖🕊️😘

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I love your heartfelt work, Deborah. So expressive, it touches the heart.

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Oh thank you so much C.J. I often write to have a good cleanse. The bonus is when anyone else feels it. I must read your flight attendant story! I saved it! Have a good weekend friend. ox

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You’re so welcome, Deborah. Writing for a good cleanse is a great way to say it. You have a great weekend, too.

hugs,

your friend

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Thank you C.J. I think that’s the best feeling and the addiction of writing. It leaves me often on the ground or in the clouds - and then I want more. ox

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Yes! More, more, more! 😁😁

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So true!! The heart just grabs you.

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It sure does!

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It does. There are things we never forget and they are always the unspoken heart things. ox

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Ebbs and flows, Deborah. The memories remain xx

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Yes friend. The ebbs and flows of life. The memories stay. No matter what direction, or who we're with or not - we must keep going forward doing ourselves. I hope you feel better. I know you've been under the weather. oxox

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Beautiful 😍, hold on and keep squeezing 💜🙏

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Ahhh thank you Simone! We are definitely holding on. I really need to catchup with you. Thank you so much for reading and for this kind comment. oxox

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You’re very welcome 😊💜🙏🧚‍♀️💕

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So beautiful! I had these moments too. Driving home from the Christian wedding of a friend's daughter, knowing where my own daughter is. Sometimes I'm amazed that mother's hearts don't explode in love, joy and pain. They truly are remarkable aren't they? I felt that I was there with you in that moment. Celebrating but feeling all the feels.

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Awe, thank you so much Rosemary for this! I am amazed too that our hearts don’t explode during these times. It does penetrate our hearts forever though. I think we all know the ups and downs of our hearts and it continually proves time after time that these are the moments that count to eternity, vs all the “things,” screens, etc. that can fill our minds. I so appreciate your comment! oxox

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Ah, Deb. Life surely changes us as well as the people who we love the most. We must navigate our own changes and theirs, as well. Persisting in accepting the ones we love in all their states can be a challenge, and I’m so glad to read you’ve weathered the storm with your usual grace and enduring love. Sending you a hug as always and wishing you a beautiful week. ❤️❤️❤️

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Dear Jenn, I love this and how you talk about navigating. I think we look back and wonder if we could have done things differently and then we go forward with these stories. Perhaps they are meant to teach something to future generations or solve the missing puzzle piece of the whys? Why do we feel deeply about things? or what it is about being creative that is so emotional? I hope you’re having a good week so far. Sending you a big hug back. Thank you. oxox

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Creativity definitely unlocks something deep and profound and raw. I don’t know why either, but I’m glad you feel it, too!

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It does. It's a saving grace ✨🙏🏻

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Yes! ❤️

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I felt that moment with you all… hand squeezes say so much! The bond with your youngest cemented again and again! I know the story, I know the joy you’ve just had visiting him. But at that moment when you flew back home… leaving him a man on his own… those moments never fade. Makes me tear up for you and the times in my life with my son. Thanks for sharing this, Deb! I get it! I feel your every word…and the song, the music and photos enrich it tremendously! Love you more with every piece I read! 😍🫶❤️

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Dear Joan, oh this made me cry to read. But then I am in a strange emotional place and God's got me writing my way through it. Thank you so much for reading and for your kindness and support. You have no idea what it means to my heart. Love you friend. oxox

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I love the inspired creative way you tell your real story. I feel I’m watch a Broadway play or movie. You take your reader with you on these journeys. Lovely writing, song and poetry. 💖🤗✨

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Thank you so much dear friend. I had a good cry. A play within a play. It means so much to me that you read it! I know how busy you are! I can't wait to read your latest! Love you and hope you're having a good weekend. oxox

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Thank you! I love this. I can see it is a movie. You’re writing and of course photography is leans to create that atmosphere.

I’m falling into a schedule now so Saturday is my reading catch up day. Once you get a schedule and routine down it’s much easier to manage time. I left you a note to thank you for the upgrade! I greatly appreciate that gesture from the bottom of my heart. Sending you much love and gratitude! ✨🙏💜🤗

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Oh thank you so much Charlotte! and it is my pleasure to subscribe properly! I have also been doing the catchup on Saturdays and some on Sunday afternoon too. Our grandson has a 7th birthday party tomorrow (24th is the real day!). I will check your note and I hope you're having a peaceful day. The weather here in SoCal has been gorgeous for a bit of gardening and reading! I can't wait to read about your fur babies! love you. ox

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So touching.

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Thank you so much Elizabeth. ox

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That is a lovely poem, and a lovely story. It's always intensely emotional for everyone in the family when a child moves away, even temporarily, and you capture that beautifully. The photography is fantastic, as well... 😎

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