Its 3:27 am - I am drifting in my own sea of thoughts , dreams and memories- thanks for sharing so much beauty that feeds our hearts - and keeps us connected to what matters ♥️
I am still re-living the Mothers day surprise. The best gift ever. I could want for nothing more than to have my "kids" with me on Mothers Day and to feel so blessed. You did it Deb and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I have thought of that moment over and over. We love you mom and always desire the best for you. Thank you for being the beautiful, caring mom you have always been. ox
Thank you so much Jenn. I hope you were treated to a sweet Mother’s Day - although knowing your heart — just having your lovely littles around to love is the sweetest gift. oxox
Deb, I love this ode to your sweet mother. I absolutely loved the video of you surprising her- having seen that first, it gave these words even more depth and perspective. A face to the name.
Thank you Krissy. I loved how my youngest, Ian, (who has my heart for creativity and all souls in general, and is often connected to me in serendipitous moments that shake me to the core) shared that poem with me knowing how I wasn’t able to hold all three babies and that his older brother (8 years older) was an extreme emergency at birth. I wrote about it in this piece. And I was born at home with a midwife who had to run to the neighbors and ask to use their phone to call a doctor. Both riding bikes!! It was a miracle I was born alive just like our Max. https://open.substack.com/pub/deborahthewitt/p/underwater-birth-not-a-whales-tale?r=kn8dx&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=false
Thank you Charlotte! I am enjoying the time - although short - leaving Wednesday and right now typing on a VERY big letter keyboard that has a mind of it’s own! ha ha! Trying to sneak a moment to catch-up before get home to more busy stuff. Sending you much love. ox
Thank you Daniel. My son found this poem for me a few years ago - I think the author is listed there. It’s so lovely. He knew what I went through and how much I wanted to hold my babies right away.
Happy Mother’s Day Deb. Our UK one is in March. I am sure your mom is feeling so blessed.
can relate to the bit about (not) having the babies laid on you. My son was taken straight to the special care baby unit as soon as he was born so I didn’t experience that and it stayed with me. I was lying in the table turning my head to try and see him as they took him away. These things really stay with you ❤️
Happy Mother’s Day to you all! Well there are 3 of us in our little SS community. I’m so sorry to hear we each had traumatic experiences. With my first son I had back labor and pain that felt larger than the universe. It was ‘light’ pain medication that made me hallucinate or an epidural. I got the latter which slowed things down some but he got stuck. Pushing for 2 hours until all the vessels in my eyes burst caused a massive contusion on his head and he went into distress so they took him cesarean and he was born almost gone (score of 1 out of 10) I didn’t hold him until they saved his life. My second son was scheduled cesarean because his brother failed to make the turn so I saw him hale and hearty but they took him away to clean him up. Western medicine fails us in some ways and the machinations of modern birthing is one of them. I’m thankful for the skills but the bonding should be better maintained nowadays.
Oh my LORD Cori!!!! This is ugh. I can imagine it all. The hallucinating, burst eye vessels, contusion on your babies head. Our first was so painful I thought my back was breaking after 17 hours. Sitting there alone on the floor, bleeding, of this irresponsible birthing center where there was only one nurse on duty. Not knowing if our baby died for over an hour. Alone!!! We learned so hard. So so hard. I look straight down the center of every issue and have ever since. NEVER be radical in anything. But radically believe in the power of faith, the power of prayer and that He knows far far better than us -- and how to listen and decide what is truly right and wrong. What you say here "Western medicine fails us in some ways and the machinations of modern birthing is one of them. I’m thankful for the skills but the bonding should be better maintained nowadays." Yes!! I am rejecting much of Western medicine still - and believe that birth should be beautiful and safe. Both. We would have never chosen that birthing center if we knew how poorly it was being ran. Or the weird beliefs they had like a fetal monitor would kill our baby? what? Our last, although taken away too, like yours, was born with a midwife in a hospital. Best choice. It was hard and beautiful. But short. A gift!!! I'm so sorry you went through that. oxox
Mum is on day three of not believing it. ha ha. And it is certainly something that stays with you. I'm sorry that was your case as well :(. All three of mine were swept away at birth. The first being extremely traumatic. I finally wrote about it ten years later, sobbing through it in a journal. So much shame involved - but realized it was a deep turning point of unconsciously and consciously latching onto militant belief. We truly believed that basic things like a fetal monitor would kill our baby and opted for under water birth with a famous dr. at a California birthing center. It was a disaster and we grew up fast. It's why we think/dissect issues, situations, and are thoughtful. We do not buy into anything without much discernment - It especially hit us hard, our own hippie behavior (however, many things, like independence, freedom, we have always been of the ilk) that we could have killed our son. We don't over react or under react and that's the way we raised our kids. Think. Feel your gut to the core of what is right or wrong and possibly a lie being fed to you. By the time we had our second child in a "birthing room within the hospital" - John still stopped and questioned the nurse about the fetal monitor! She was shocked. He still believed it could harm our baby. Since this time, and especially since the pandemic - we have grown wise in a deeper sense and it's why choice is so important and also whether your choices are radicalized -- that's the question. It's not radical to turn down a liquid shot. It is a bit radical not to "hear" what's going on with your baby to possibly save his/her life!! -- The piece is here: https://open.substack.com/pub/deborahthewitt/p/underwater-birth-not-a-whales-tale?r=kn8dx&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=false
Hope you had a lovely Mother's Day! I am sneaking a tiny bit of time on mum's huge computer with her GINORMOUS keyboard that's a bit wonky! (her eyes!) Sending you much love. oxox
Its 3:27 am - I am drifting in my own sea of thoughts , dreams and memories- thanks for sharing so much beauty that feeds our hearts - and keeps us connected to what matters ♥️
I am still re-living the Mothers day surprise. The best gift ever. I could want for nothing more than to have my "kids" with me on Mothers Day and to feel so blessed. You did it Deb and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I have thought of that moment over and over. We love you mom and always desire the best for you. Thank you for being the beautiful, caring mom you have always been. ox
Beautiful, Deb! What a beautiful tribute. I am so glad you were able to surprise your lovely Mum ❤️
Thank you so much Jenn. I hope you were treated to a sweet Mother’s Day - although knowing your heart — just having your lovely littles around to love is the sweetest gift. oxox
It was a good one for sure, Deb ! I hope you had a beautiful day, too ❤️
Deb, I love this ode to your sweet mother. I absolutely loved the video of you surprising her- having seen that first, it gave these words even more depth and perspective. A face to the name.
Thank you Krissy. I loved how my youngest, Ian, (who has my heart for creativity and all souls in general, and is often connected to me in serendipitous moments that shake me to the core) shared that poem with me knowing how I wasn’t able to hold all three babies and that his older brother (8 years older) was an extreme emergency at birth. I wrote about it in this piece. And I was born at home with a midwife who had to run to the neighbors and ask to use their phone to call a doctor. Both riding bikes!! It was a miracle I was born alive just like our Max. https://open.substack.com/pub/deborahthewitt/p/underwater-birth-not-a-whales-tale?r=kn8dx&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=false
I hope you are enjoying a beautiful weekend in Oregon together! I love the photos. Something to treasure Deborah!
Thank you Charlotte! I am enjoying the time - although short - leaving Wednesday and right now typing on a VERY big letter keyboard that has a mind of it’s own! ha ha! Trying to sneak a moment to catch-up before get home to more busy stuff. Sending you much love. ox
I had the best surprise from the best little mother/daughter this mother's day weekend. Another special memory to treasure. Happy Mother's Day!
Yesss! We pulled it off! Love you mama. oxox
Happy Mother's Day, and glad your son wrote such an excellent, touching poem!! I hope all is well with you and your son.
Thank you Daniel. My son found this poem for me a few years ago - I think the author is listed there. It’s so lovely. He knew what I went through and how much I wanted to hold my babies right away.
Happy Mother’s Day Deb. Our UK one is in March. I am sure your mom is feeling so blessed.
can relate to the bit about (not) having the babies laid on you. My son was taken straight to the special care baby unit as soon as he was born so I didn’t experience that and it stayed with me. I was lying in the table turning my head to try and see him as they took him away. These things really stay with you ❤️
We keep moving forward 🥹have a wonderful weekend
Happy Mother’s Day to you all! Well there are 3 of us in our little SS community. I’m so sorry to hear we each had traumatic experiences. With my first son I had back labor and pain that felt larger than the universe. It was ‘light’ pain medication that made me hallucinate or an epidural. I got the latter which slowed things down some but he got stuck. Pushing for 2 hours until all the vessels in my eyes burst caused a massive contusion on his head and he went into distress so they took him cesarean and he was born almost gone (score of 1 out of 10) I didn’t hold him until they saved his life. My second son was scheduled cesarean because his brother failed to make the turn so I saw him hale and hearty but they took him away to clean him up. Western medicine fails us in some ways and the machinations of modern birthing is one of them. I’m thankful for the skills but the bonding should be better maintained nowadays.
Oh my LORD Cori!!!! This is ugh. I can imagine it all. The hallucinating, burst eye vessels, contusion on your babies head. Our first was so painful I thought my back was breaking after 17 hours. Sitting there alone on the floor, bleeding, of this irresponsible birthing center where there was only one nurse on duty. Not knowing if our baby died for over an hour. Alone!!! We learned so hard. So so hard. I look straight down the center of every issue and have ever since. NEVER be radical in anything. But radically believe in the power of faith, the power of prayer and that He knows far far better than us -- and how to listen and decide what is truly right and wrong. What you say here "Western medicine fails us in some ways and the machinations of modern birthing is one of them. I’m thankful for the skills but the bonding should be better maintained nowadays." Yes!! I am rejecting much of Western medicine still - and believe that birth should be beautiful and safe. Both. We would have never chosen that birthing center if we knew how poorly it was being ran. Or the weird beliefs they had like a fetal monitor would kill our baby? what? Our last, although taken away too, like yours, was born with a midwife in a hospital. Best choice. It was hard and beautiful. But short. A gift!!! I'm so sorry you went through that. oxox
Mum is on day three of not believing it. ha ha. And it is certainly something that stays with you. I'm sorry that was your case as well :(. All three of mine were swept away at birth. The first being extremely traumatic. I finally wrote about it ten years later, sobbing through it in a journal. So much shame involved - but realized it was a deep turning point of unconsciously and consciously latching onto militant belief. We truly believed that basic things like a fetal monitor would kill our baby and opted for under water birth with a famous dr. at a California birthing center. It was a disaster and we grew up fast. It's why we think/dissect issues, situations, and are thoughtful. We do not buy into anything without much discernment - It especially hit us hard, our own hippie behavior (however, many things, like independence, freedom, we have always been of the ilk) that we could have killed our son. We don't over react or under react and that's the way we raised our kids. Think. Feel your gut to the core of what is right or wrong and possibly a lie being fed to you. By the time we had our second child in a "birthing room within the hospital" - John still stopped and questioned the nurse about the fetal monitor! She was shocked. He still believed it could harm our baby. Since this time, and especially since the pandemic - we have grown wise in a deeper sense and it's why choice is so important and also whether your choices are radicalized -- that's the question. It's not radical to turn down a liquid shot. It is a bit radical not to "hear" what's going on with your baby to possibly save his/her life!! -- The piece is here: https://open.substack.com/pub/deborahthewitt/p/underwater-birth-not-a-whales-tale?r=kn8dx&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=false
Hope you had a lovely Mother's Day! I am sneaking a tiny bit of time on mum's huge computer with her GINORMOUS keyboard that's a bit wonky! (her eyes!) Sending you much love. oxox
Happy Mother's Day(USA).