It’s so hard in life when we get negative feedback for the worst parts of ourselves. But when we feel chastised for the best parts of ourselves the pain is next level. That is what I am getting from you here. I haven’t read the piece about your firing.
Yeah, I completely agree. Being ourselves in life, although always trying to improve, seek more faith, remain resilient and respectful, etc., is most important. I have found that rejection is something you have no control over. It's part of life and in all our families and relationships. You can apologize for every failure and fault from being a parent, friend or whatever you were/are, but when no real good reason is given for why things fell apart it's hard to move back into that space again. I thank God I can release the weights of thinking it's entirely up to me to put things back together and continue to move forward loving and grateful for the time we receive and cherish. The story isn't over. ox
So much fear, confusion and pain. It is hard to forget. But we are awake to it now and we have each other as well as the divine love that keeps us in faith, in hope, in trust. 💫
It’s hard to navigate in a busy world and we can weigh ourselves down with confusion. Being awake, like you say, and not responsible for feelings that aren’t ours or for what is the unknown? that’s the most important on a positive journey ahead. And our faith, which extends to hope and love. Thank you friend. ox
I read this and then went back and read the other piece and oh my word. What you have been through. Going through those simultaneous upheavals of your dad’s illness and being frozen out by your son. I am in awe that you are able to express it so beautifully and with so much love. Yes we are coming alive, and we live and move and have our being in God. Thanks again, brave person.
Gosh Deborah, what an incredible post and poem. It's a testament of how resilient your spirit is in spite of everything that happened in your life and with your family. It's tough to be silent about what's happened the last four years, let alone being silent about being yourself. How can an awake person function with the normies who pretend nothing's wrong. I myself have to be a double agent of the Universe; office worker by day, poet by night. I have a poem in development about this very subject/predicament. Anyway, hang in there and know that the Universal Mind has your back - always had, always will. xoxo
Ahhhh thank you so very much. This means so much. I can only find that resilience with my Maker. It’s the anchor in the wide open ocean of the world. I’d rather cling to that than to be bobbing alone. Deep and personal right? But these last four years must be called out in a way that meets the deepest part of the heart. Alive and fearless to speak truth. Fearless to live our purpose too. oxoxox
Sweet Deb, you are a giver, and you will give your whole heart away for a sufferer. I cannot imagine how it pained you and how hard it has been to reel in that gift. Yes, please keep the creativity flowing as you praise God and edify people through your words ❤️. Thank you, too, for your beautiful friendship!
Dear Jenn, I missed this! You are too kind. My heart is usually "all in." It's sad to know I guard it more - but now it belongs deeply to God, who I trust, is guiding it. Now it's about creating as I let Him write the story. Thank you for your big and most beautiful heart. ox
Relationships and people are so complicated, and you have been through a lot with your family. I hope you all can continue to strengthen your bonds and that it only gets better from here ❤️. Beautifully written and I’m sending you healing love .
I just adore you Jenn. Yes they are. And it’s taken me so long to realize that I can’t be the only one in them and weighed down by so much guilt for not having them the way, I guess, society perceives them or I perceive them to be. Open, friendly, sometimes deep, honest, loving and forgiving. All we can do is take the chains off and hand them over to God. Since this, all I want to do is create as an offering to Him. Just keep creating. Thank you so much for being a great friend here. Sending you a lot of love back. ox
All you had to do was mention For King & Country for me 😂 (big fan, haha). Love your beautiful version of it ❤️ Thank you for sharing your heart, the burdens we carry in this life are rough. Thankfully, the God we serve has big arms and some serious strength. He'll always be there for you and me ❤️ Keep on keeping on, Deborah! You're doing amazing!
Yesss! I ADORE them!! Thank you for your wisdom Merissa. He’s got us. He’s guiding us. He is FOR US! We will keep on keeping on. Your doing amazing too. I am so inspired. oxoxox
Deborah, did you write about your firing? How do I find it?
Yes, and the October after I wrote we were given 24 hrs notice that we would come together at a birthday party.
It's here: (it's long. and thank you. I must catchup with your great writing Charles!) https://open.substack.com/pub/deborahthewitt/p/does-time-heal-all-wounds?r=kn8dx&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web
It’s so hard in life when we get negative feedback for the worst parts of ourselves. But when we feel chastised for the best parts of ourselves the pain is next level. That is what I am getting from you here. I haven’t read the piece about your firing.
Yeah, I completely agree. Being ourselves in life, although always trying to improve, seek more faith, remain resilient and respectful, etc., is most important. I have found that rejection is something you have no control over. It's part of life and in all our families and relationships. You can apologize for every failure and fault from being a parent, friend or whatever you were/are, but when no real good reason is given for why things fell apart it's hard to move back into that space again. I thank God I can release the weights of thinking it's entirely up to me to put things back together and continue to move forward loving and grateful for the time we receive and cherish. The story isn't over. ox
Inspiring
Thank you Rivka. It's not easy. ox
So much fear, confusion and pain. It is hard to forget. But we are awake to it now and we have each other as well as the divine love that keeps us in faith, in hope, in trust. 💫
It’s hard to navigate in a busy world and we can weigh ourselves down with confusion. Being awake, like you say, and not responsible for feelings that aren’t ours or for what is the unknown? that’s the most important on a positive journey ahead. And our faith, which extends to hope and love. Thank you friend. ox
I read this and then went back and read the other piece and oh my word. What you have been through. Going through those simultaneous upheavals of your dad’s illness and being frozen out by your son. I am in awe that you are able to express it so beautifully and with so much love. Yes we are coming alive, and we live and move and have our being in God. Thanks again, brave person.
Thank you for the love. Life seems to come with multiple upheavals all at once right?
But we are coming alive to our purpose. I think you are extremely brave. Hoping to get a chance to message you back later this evening 🥰 ox
Gosh Deborah, what an incredible post and poem. It's a testament of how resilient your spirit is in spite of everything that happened in your life and with your family. It's tough to be silent about what's happened the last four years, let alone being silent about being yourself. How can an awake person function with the normies who pretend nothing's wrong. I myself have to be a double agent of the Universe; office worker by day, poet by night. I have a poem in development about this very subject/predicament. Anyway, hang in there and know that the Universal Mind has your back - always had, always will. xoxo
Ahhhh thank you so very much. This means so much. I can only find that resilience with my Maker. It’s the anchor in the wide open ocean of the world. I’d rather cling to that than to be bobbing alone. Deep and personal right? But these last four years must be called out in a way that meets the deepest part of the heart. Alive and fearless to speak truth. Fearless to live our purpose too. oxoxox
Sweet Deb, you are a giver, and you will give your whole heart away for a sufferer. I cannot imagine how it pained you and how hard it has been to reel in that gift. Yes, please keep the creativity flowing as you praise God and edify people through your words ❤️. Thank you, too, for your beautiful friendship!
Dear Jenn, I missed this! You are too kind. My heart is usually "all in." It's sad to know I guard it more - but now it belongs deeply to God, who I trust, is guiding it. Now it's about creating as I let Him write the story. Thank you for your big and most beautiful heart. ox
That is beautiful, Deb. ❤️🙌.
Relationships and people are so complicated, and you have been through a lot with your family. I hope you all can continue to strengthen your bonds and that it only gets better from here ❤️. Beautifully written and I’m sending you healing love .
I just adore you Jenn. Yes they are. And it’s taken me so long to realize that I can’t be the only one in them and weighed down by so much guilt for not having them the way, I guess, society perceives them or I perceive them to be. Open, friendly, sometimes deep, honest, loving and forgiving. All we can do is take the chains off and hand them over to God. Since this, all I want to do is create as an offering to Him. Just keep creating. Thank you so much for being a great friend here. Sending you a lot of love back. ox
All you had to do was mention For King & Country for me 😂 (big fan, haha). Love your beautiful version of it ❤️ Thank you for sharing your heart, the burdens we carry in this life are rough. Thankfully, the God we serve has big arms and some serious strength. He'll always be there for you and me ❤️ Keep on keeping on, Deborah! You're doing amazing!
Yesss! I ADORE them!! Thank you for your wisdom Merissa. He’s got us. He’s guiding us. He is FOR US! We will keep on keeping on. Your doing amazing too. I am so inspired. oxoxox
Hi Deb,
Amen.
Love,
Kristin oxox
love you. ox